My name is Juan Pablo Gonzalez, and I am an addict. I grew up in Katy, a suburb of Houston, Texas and I come from a financially stable family. As a kid I was always getting into trouble, and I would take all my anger out on the ones that I love the most. I grew up catholic and established a relationship with God at an early age, studying the bible, going on mission trips, and serving. I had addict behavior growing up and I developed an eating disorder in my early teens because I was insecure, depressed and not comfortable in my skin. In ninth grade I started smoking weed to cope with my problems. I dropped out of school by tenth grade and started using drugs. I alienated myself from my family because of the shame and guilt I had for disappointing them. I could not see any hope for my future, and I became suicidal.