Addiction took a-lot of relationships, jobs, and friendships by the time the grips of addiction had me in it’s grasp. I truly lost everything. I woke up every morning, wishing that this would be my last day on earth. The pain just became too much to bear.
I have to tell you, I don’t feel like that anymore. Today I’m a son, a brother, husband, and a father I wake up every day, wanting to live, wanting to feel, wanting to be loved, and wanting to give love. Because I came into the rooms of recovery, and I took the suggestions while I was living at Fellowship Recovery Community Organization. For the first time in my life I followed rules. I did my 90 in 90, I got a sponsor, and I started working the steps. I built that thing they called a foundation with people that were doing the right thing. Slowly, but surely all those things that I had lost, started coming back to me, by working the steps. I truly got to know myself. I truly got to love myself.
I started building those relationships back that I’d lost, the most important ones were with my family; my mom, and my two sisters, Samantha, and Jacklyn. Shortly after that happened I lost my dad due to addiction. It was a difficult thing for me. He was my best friend. My sister, Samantha was just about to get married, and by God’s grace and her forgiveness, she asked me to walk her down the aisle for her wedding. I was honored. A lot of good things start happening.
I started a business which I still have today, we have about 20 employees. I hired a lawyer, made some donations, and I got those felonies expunged and sealed. And of course I’ve got some material things back as well. I got my drivers license. I own a truck and make those payments on that truck, a motorcycle, Airboat, four wheeler… all the toys.